The Blowing Wind

Well, the wind is blowing, the wind has blown, the sand is scattering across the desert floor. Last year was a heck of a year, the fishing left much to be desired here in the San Diego and Baja Norte region. The economics of the era I suppose left much to be desired as well. I lost a job, collected unemployment, found a job, lost a close family member to cancer, lost my family's home, borrowed money from family members, something I never thought I would do, and just in general was humbled by this big cold world. Now, on the lighter side, I found the things that really matter, the things that really bring value to this life. I have pictures that I want to share, but my computer is as dysfunctional as me so no luck!Ha! My family whether by luck or thread is still here, and still beautiful. Man I love this life, and crave the changes and pain that is deals. I don't pretend to be a Yoda but I sure do appreciate the experience and time this world and it's creator has afforded me. I have come to realize that this world and the life and death that it brings with it, are gifts.... they both play into eachother in exquisite melodious helixes. It is almost as if the harmony that is within the hurt and joy that we call life is an ablsolute answer to the pathetic existential question that we the human race find necessary to quandary our selves with. Why are we here? What am I supposed to do? What is my purpose? It's simple......................... Live. Live like there is no tomorrow, because in many cases, there is not.

Well, we all know the truth I suppose... if we hear it and decide to listen to it. It is whether we decide to listen to it sooner rather than later.




This year 2011, while on the surface may not be looking as pretty and smooth as I would like, is actually looking quite good. Jobs are being found, shoot, maybe not the apex position, but I even found one, and it is allowing me to do something I find purpose in..... Building things, no matter on what scale. Whether a small Interior improvement, or an extremely complex congeneration plant upgrade at a major institution, it gives me purpose, and gratification, and even better.....Time. Time to think about what I am going to do tomorrow. I have an idea, I've always been good at that, ideas; my down fall has always been the execution of those ideas. God, that's right, I said it, God, has given me the opportunity to consider the execution of some of those ideas. One of those ideas, is these words that I am writing right now. I even have a book to finish, one that I have half finished and put my heart and soul into. It is a true story, and for whatever it is worth, a portion of its journey once finished will define me.

So here is to everyone, everyone that has hurt and experienced hard times over the past year and years. Cheers to your hurt, thank you for your sacrafice. Your pain is not for nothing, but rather for something. You are a Dad, a Mom, an Uncle, a Son, a Daughter, a brother, a sister, a Friend......... a Cowboy, a Soldier, a Fire Fighter, a Police Man, or just as important, a painter, an electrician, a builder, a construction worker, an American, and a Human, part of the foundation of the world, part of the foundation of life. Suck it up, drink the liquor, the drink of life. Wake up, take a deep breath and open your eyes. It hurts,and it feels good. It's life.